Friendship

Can you love someone more than the friendship? That's question on my heart today. Am I willing to do the right thing in a friendship even if it means that we won't be friends anymore. I have made that choice already and now I am no longer friends with them. It's hard. Last night I couldn't sleep thinking about how this all went down. I know that I did the right thing but I am not sure I did it the right way. I know this means nothing to anyone else but I'm just thinking out loud.

What is a person worth, even a good friendship?

Love one another

Yesterday's sermon really shook me up. In the midst of betrayal and denial (Jn 13), Jesus loved. I think about the people who have betrayed me and it has been hard to love. Not only that but, if I have come to the point of loving, it takes a while to process and ask God to deal with my heart. Jesus did it instantly. He was so good that he didn't need a week, month, or a year to deal with everything and love. He did it instantly.

What would it look like if we loved like this. What would happen if we went to the people that have hurt us and asked them for forgiveness for our bitterness. I know what you are already thinking because I am thinking the same. They will think that we for sure have lost it- You are a weirdo! Probably so, but what about the freedom that we will experience knowing that we have followed Christ and that we have released them, given that hurtful situation to God.

Something to think about...

Life changes FAST!

Just got off the phone with a friend of mine who's life almost changed forever. Last night while loading their one year old daughter into their car a drunk driver hit them. They were parked outside a friends house, just finished dinner, and were on their way home. Just a second earlier, his wife would have been crushed by the oncoming car. No one was seriously injured, the guy was arrested, the only casualty was their car.

I remember the way my life changed in 1999. July 3rd, we were getting supper ready when the phone rang. It was MUSC saying that they had a liver for my dad. We left the food on the stove. 10 days later, he died.

I remember sitting in the doctors office looking for a heartbeat on the screen. Realizing that we just lost our third baby.

I remember the day I saw Becky at the fair. I was asked by a friend if I wanted to meet her. I did, but not there. We met that next week.

I remember the day the gospel changed my life. Sitting, listening to someone speak, and for some reason it made sense. My life would never be the same.

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Fear

I know it's wrong to fear. But it's still here. Sometimes (like right now) I am overcome with fear. When I realize that people's lives are in the balance, I become fearful. I meet so many people who were hurt or turned off by church, I don't want that to happen because of me. I can't do it...I know how little I actually know about so little, whether youth ministry, church, money, family, life. I so badly need God to speak and guide. I am thinking of Moses. While going through life he meets God, face to face. Ex. 2.10 God says, "So now go, I am sending you." What is Moses response? Who am I, that I should go?" and God said, "I will be with you."

That is my only comfort. I feel refreshed even now. God has told me that He would be with me. I can last one more day, I can touch one more life, I can take one more step. Only because of the One who sustains me and walks with me. Thank you God

What about you? Have you ever done anything that requires God to show up or else?Maybe you should...go

Worst Financial Mistake...

We both had new jobs, married for about a year, and one day we were walking to our car and decided that we needed a new one. We went to the dealership, just looking of course, but ended up driving it home. I am sure that the salesmen were high fiving when we walked out the door! It was a very expensive lesson, and we paid on it for about 4 years. I know your thinking- YOu almost had it paid off, why would you sell it? Oh no, we thought seven years was a great amount of time to pay back a loan so we had a while to go. So we rejoiced the day we sold the X-Terra and broke even.

2nd worst mistake...

Are you noticing a pattern here?

We had some great mentors/friends who sat us down, cried with us, and helped us decide what to do next. We paid off all credit card debt, sold both cars, and simplified life. It wasn't that easy, but now I sleep when I lay my head down at night. You can keep all those fancy toys!